Monday, March 23, 2009

What should I do now?

I just wonder what can I do now. I don't know really. I am in the half of unemployment. The current task is end. The new task is still unknown. The new job is really not controllable to me. What a mess situation! I dislike it. So what can I do?
Try to learn something new? This sounds a good idea but what I learned may useless because I may not use it in the new job. If that's the case, I'd better do not learn it.
How about continue the previous task? No, I don't want to do that. It really makes disappointed. I devoted much much time and energy in it. But what an end! I want to close it as soon as possible.
What about learn something new and useful forever? That sounds a good idea. There are something always useful for me. Oh, yes, English and communication skills. That's a good idea. I should continue with my English study and communication skill improvement.
Ah, I am writing now. It is a good practice. I may not write very well but I am writing. It is not a problem if I keep writing. I can do a good job. That's it.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Tired

I feel tired these days. After the training, I think I should do some practice and write some articles about it. It will be really helpful to understand the new technology. On the other side, I think I still need to study English hard. To practice is the most important. I am watching Family Album, USA this weekend. It's really good. I think I am trying my best to follow it. It is really classical study resources.
There are some works in weekend as well. I do a restore a 7 TB database last night. It took me nearly 12 hours. I felt exhausted. It is an unexpected task. Maybe this will be my last big task in this department. Although it is hard, I really enjoyed the success when I finished it in time. It is a evidence that I am good at it. Even I am very tired after that, it is not bad anyway.
It is also harder and harder to feed my little baby these days. He seems more exited than ever. When it's time for eating, he just moving his hands and feet at every direction. The funny thing is that he is speaking JieJie these days. It seems he'd like to have a sister. He may want to talk with us. I hope he can start talk a little earlier than others in the same age. It is always good to speak than silent.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Training

I am in a training this week. I feel good. It is really good to take trainings now and then. I think it is good to take it at least once a year. Our company is good in this aspect. I got at least 6 formal trainings in last 3 years if I am not wrong. Also I took a certification exam.
When I am in training days, I don't need to worry about any work related issues. At least there is no much pressure when something is happened. There are backup men. They will help me to do work as necessary. For trainings, as it is always something I am familiar with, it is also no pressure, actually somewhat relax during the training. Just listen to the teacher and do some practices. The time is always enough. I always have some extra time to talk with other students or discuss with teachers. It's really good.
Most likely, we will have trainings at a different site other than daily working office. It is good to change a environment for some days. It is a kind of adjustment of feeling about work. Most probably it let me feel better on my job. In most cases, we will be off about an hour earlier than working time. You see, I can go out and take subway or buses without too much people. That feels really not bad. Sometimes, we can have free lunch at the training site. It is also an add-on to the benefit. Basically, I always have a good feeling on most aspects. So I like trainings.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Why is it hard to write blog everyday?

I don't know why I cannot write blog everyday. Am I really so busy? Not really! Do I have no access to Internet? Not true! So why? Maybe I am somewhat lazy. Maybe I am not talkative. Maybe I don't have the habit to write down things. All in all, maybe I am not good at expressing myself. Oh, yes! That's the reason why I want to start with this blog.
But without practice, how can I get changed? Practice is the best way. Maybe I don't write well this time, but I will one day if I keep practice. Maybe I am not so good at written English, but I will one day. Maybe it is not so attractive today, but it will be attractive someday if I keep going. Maybe I am not so intelligent, but I know how to practice. Maybe I cannot do it well once, I will do it well after many tries. There is nobody stop me from trying but myself. I should go on. I will go on. I can go on. That's the best way.
Another thing in my mind is open mind. Although I knew this phrase many many years ago, but not until recently when I heard it from an US HR manager. I suddenly know that this is what I am looking for. I tried many many times to help me talkative and express myself well. I didn't get the satisfy answer. Open mind, yes, that's the best thought if I want to be easy to talkative. I will be open mind. I will practice open mind year by year, day by day and hour by hour!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

It is so busy these days

My current role will come to an end. But it seems I become more and more busy these days, knowledge transition, projects wrap up, new position searching, etc. Wow, how busy am I!
I hope I can start my new role as soon as possible, no matter it is a good one or not. I don't want to spend too much time on the going away projects and errands. I really want to have a fresh start. I also should think about relationship between myself and the company. How to deal with new opportunities later? I cannot do as the past. Actually I feel I was hardly hurt by this action. I don't want this kind of things to happen again. I really need to control my career road by myself. Maybe as one of my colleague's suggestion, I should seek opportunities to be manager. As a first line employee, you can never control your work. Even when the bad news comes, you are the last one to know. You are not told until the last minutes. It is somewhat unfair. I don't believe the management team take much more responsibilities than general employees. You see, when the company doesn't run will. Who will be fired? Who will get less and less? When the company runs well, who will get the biggest part of bonus? I hope one day I will be my own boss, taking responsibilities as well as taking advantages. Is there anything I can do beside writing my feeling here? Not too much!
Anyway, I will be happy tomorrow and get what I want to do. This is my own life!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Study a new technology or go on with the familiar one

Now I have a chance to study a new technology. Also I have an opportunity to continue my career with my well-known technology. My manager asked me to reply him as soon as possible. Which should I choose? It is really difficult.
The new technology is a very famous solution. If I go to that, I may have more choices later in my career road. The problem is that I have to study something new in a short time. If I don't catch up soon, I will get bad performance rate at the end of this year. One more problem I should note is that this new position has very less relationship with what I am doing now. I may have to set my current knowledge aside for a while. I don't think it is help to learn the new technology. The idea position is which use the new technology and have relationship with my familiar one. But this kind of position is not available now.
If I choose the old technology path, it is very obviously I don't need to study more. Everything is familiar. I don't need to suffer pain time of studying. But the problem is that I will not have such an opportunity to experience another technology. As everyone know, the study chance is not provided everywhere. Actually it is very seldom. No company want to just send you to study.
Oh, What can I do? Could you tell me?

Monday, March 2, 2009

End of a decade is fated to bad, really?

There are says that it will be somewhat difficult time at end of a decade. This year is 2009, the end of this decade. Is it a bad time? From my prospective, it is. The economy is bad. My health is not so good. The most important is that their are lots of cloud in front of my life. It seems everything is not so certain. Although things are changing all the time, it seems it doesn't toward to the right direction.
I really don't know why. I had done nothing wrong. Even there is really no matter with me, but I was influenced. It is obviously I was involved no matter I think it is or not. I cannot escape from the swirl. Only if I am living in a unknown mountain, do everything myself without exchanging stuffs with out side world. Can I do that? Even if I can, how about my families? They may most likely don't like that. Oh, I cannot escape.
Anyway, I hope I am happy. It doesn't matter what's the economy and anything else. I should be happy. I do believe that life is happy, not for sad. If it is always sad, why do you want to have a life? Okay, let's have fun and enjoy our time, our dinner, our talking, our sleep as well. God bless me and everybody to be happy at the end of this decade!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Buy things from online shop or physical shop

These days there are more and more online shops. Also there are more physical shops than decades ago. So for a customer, there are more choices. Do you prefer to buy things from online shops or physical shops?
As I am living in a rural area, I prefer to buy things online whenever possible. It is obviously that I needn't go out home in this way. Just open computer and surf online, I reach it immediately. Comparing this to go to physical shops, I must take buses or subways since I don't own a car. It always takes hours to reach a mall. Taking taxi is also an option but it is much expensive. Another advantage is I have more choices online. There are enough online shops and thousands of choices for a certain article. On the contrast, you don't have as many choices as you want in town malls. In a word, convenience is the best! As people say, buying all over the world at home.
But sometime I also go to physical shop because there are also advantages for physical shops. When I want to buy a coat or a sweater or a T-shirt, I definitely want to make sure it fits me well before I pay any money. Yes, I can have as many tries as I want in physical shops. Also I can see how I am looked like on the clothes. This is nearly impossible if I buy them online. Another benefit is I always get stuffs right away. If you buy a article online, it will take some days to get it.
In my humble opinion, it is good to buy online when possible. But keep in mind that it will not meet all your needs. You still want to go to physical shop now and then depends on the things you want.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

The economy crisis

It is the first time in my life that I have feeling about economy crisis. It influenced my peace life as well just as it may do to many people around the world.
As I am working for a multinational corporation, it is very clear that my company cannot avoid the influence. But at first, I don't think it will influence my career here much until last week. I got message from my manager that our team will be relocated to another country. Oh, gosh! It happened before I am aware of it. It is really bad during the economy crisis turn.
On the other hand, it may not too bad. I believe encounter it when I am young is much better than when I am old. Besides, it will let me think more about my career road and lifestyle. Yes, I should know the world is always changing. You cannot go along the road without a turn. So you have to prepare the turn before you run into it.
Anyway, I will think more about the positive part. I will be happy as much as I can. I will try to do what I can to get my life in control. It may be good to do that now. And more important, I will not be lazy now and then. Actually when I am lazy, it is not so happy in myself. Or when I am doing something, it is not so bad. I wish myself a good day tomorrow.